Today as I was completing my Bible study I finished with this verse in Proverbs.
It has stuck with me throughout the day. I need to prepare myself for the battle with grief. I need to prepare to overcome depression. I need to prepare to develop techniques in order to cope with my new reality.
However ultimately the victory belongs to the Lord.
This has given me an enormous sense of hope, the victory isn’t dependent on me. The victory is taken care of and isn’t distracted by my weaknesses.
Ever since attending a Griefshare group I can truly say that God has worked a miracle in my life. He has shown me that I am not alone, he has shown me his love through this deepest darkest valley. He has been there to hear my agonizing cries for answers, he has been there when my anger knew no end, he has been there when I was numb to those around me.
Does this mean I will no longer feel the pain of losing my life partner, most certainly not. It does however mean that I can rest assured that the victory is the Lords and not depending on me.