Loneliness is a complex and usually unpleasant emotional response to isolation. Loneliness typically includes anxious feelings about a lack of connection or communication with other beings, both in the present and extending into the future. As such, loneliness can be felt even when surrounded by other people. The causes of loneliness are varied and include social, mental, emotional, and physical factors.

This definition of loneliness sums it so well. This past week I have had this one overriding emotion. LONELINESS has been my dark companion. Missing Yolanda, my soulmate, both in her physical and emotional presence. My dark companion has caused me to doubt myself, it has made me question whether I will ever survive this loss. It has made me question whether my medication is sufficient. Will I need to be taking these meds for the rest of my life? Even at times this dark friend has whispered into my ear, “is it worth going on”.

In talking about this loneliness with my daughters it was a real reminder that this feeling is only relevant to one area of my life, and because I loved and was loved it will be forever present.

This conversation made me reflect on other aspects of my life. We are complex beings and only allowing one emotion to define us is flawed.

2 thoughts on “Loneliness

  1. Agree with you… I am a lonely soul and I too miss that companionship, physical and emotional aspect of the loss of John. I am not on medication but at times I feel that maybe I should be on something to assist me in all aspects. My status has changed, my independence has gone through me not being able to drive. I had John who always assisted me in every aspect. But the plus to that is that I have many friends and all family come forward and assist me both personally and in my little flower business which fortunately keeps me busy and stops me from sitting around doing nothing. The tiredness has returned but I am working through that. My dog is assisting me tremendously on a daily basis as he picks up when I am down. I thank you Sean for your awesome blogs which allow me to feel that I am not alone in this journey. Always here for you. Kind regards, Heather

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